Health Scare

Yesterday I got one of the biggest scares of my life, my mom went into diabetic shock. I was at work when this happened and if it hadn't been for me being a worry wart and my boyfriend I don't know what would of happened. I come from a very small family that consists of my sister, my mom and our significant others. No aunts or uncles, no grandparents. So you can see why i'm still upset, if I lose my mom, I lose everything.

Going through all of this with my family makes me worry for the future. It makes me think about life and the way I live my own. I don't go to church, I don't pray to a one 'god'. I feel lost! I feel like i'm alone with my worries. My friends don't always care and if they do they make it seem like they don't. Sometimes I feel like I have no one.

So I guess from now on I just have to keep an eye on my mom, I don't mean move back in and dictate her life, she has her husband for that :) But I will watch her closely, make sure she does what she's suppose to be doing. She's only 45 and i'll be 28, she can't leave me anytime soon.